june

its june 1st today!

june came in with a lot of hopes, hopes of being alive again as i was dead for the past few months 

last few months i have been feeling disconnected and so not myself i didnt feel like me i stopped seeing the world through my lens i forgot what it was like to be me 

and trust me losing myself is the worst ive ever felt 

i hate not being myself, i wouldnt wanna be anyone else but me 

i found myself in old loops making old mistakes choosing things i would never do or nor incline in doing

i stopped taking care of myself stopped doing my skincare stopped dressing up 

IT WAS BAD

but good thing its over now i have stopped that bullshit behaviour literally and locked the fuck in coz bro i cant be losing myself i owe it to myself to get tf up and be who i want to be and show up for myself i cant be slacking off like that nah man...

so i got up today took the first step ig i did not do nothing today,

i was not dead today,

so heres to june, 

to new days,

new ways.

ciao