snap out of it

 august has started its 6th august rn i have an exam by the next week plan was to start by monday 

get it together by monday but hey life happened fall outs happen things mess up fights happen and here i am by wednesday trying just trying everyday 

one thing ive noticeed is the mornings are not how i want them to be i wake up later than i wish to aand yeah i want my mornings to be a relaxed spa like experience for the right start of my thatd help me feeleing like the best version of myself and set the tone for a great day  and evenings when i get back from college i just feel like ive been wasting em i just come back scroll sleep my rooms all messy i either go out and come back late and just waste the whole evening i just dont wish to be living this way and im really tired of this and this isnt the reality i want to create for myself and this is just a phase and i need to snap out of it

rotting away

its a friday today i skipped college 

i did yesterday too 

i feel deppressed 

im on my period, this sucks!!!!!

since morning ive been in bed rotting tried getting up but the messed up thoughts took over 

its 5 30 in the evening rn

havent done anything since i woke up 

this isnt the way i wanna live i dont want to feel this way 

cant help it

too much going on rn but hey flip the script??

imma start by cleaning my room i probably do that a million times a week but my room is a reflection of my mind so gotta clear the external mess to feel better internally 

so task one: clean ur room.

update

lowkey cleaned my room not fully tho, brushed my hair and put some gloss on and just cleaned the bed area, well thats a win but then fell into a scroll cycle yeah that wasnt fun but back again 

dk what im gon do